Waiting II

I started training for my half back in April when I signed up. I was only able to do 3 miles and had to walk part of it. The anticipation has been building for months now. I'm ready. I want to run. Now.

And here we are the eve before my first half and I'm starting to get the jitters. No, I'm not afraid of the run it's self I know I can do it! I am confident of that. But I'm all wrapped up with little things like should I run with a pace group? If so, which slot? We can't have head phones on the course and what if at the last few miles I need a little pick me up can I just pop an ear bud in or will I get in trouble?

But honestly mainly its the time. No, I will not be running a 2 hr and I know I can run 2:30 with hills. So now that its a flat course... what time should I aim for? Yes, this is trivial and I keep telling myself just to get out there and see how it goes. The competitive side of my says set a goal, pick a time, rock it! The other part of me says, RR, you dedicated so much of your time to fulfill this goal- take a chill pill and just take it in and be happy that your ran 13.1 miles.

Sigh. Anyways...

This week I didn't run but a mile on Thursday. My legs were pretty beaten up after the ten mile from my last training course. I am very scheduled when it comes to running. I ALWAYS take two days after a long run to recover. Which meant I would have to run Tuesday which was my anniversary so of course I didn't run. Wednesday was just crazy and I literally didn't have time. Then came Thursday. I was rather annoyed with myself because I really wanted run at least 2 5ks during the week but oh well. Side note: I also realized when I don't run I eat like a damn pig. Literally, I just stuff my face. When I run I really am drawn to healthy foods. So will see how my binging effects my run tomorrow.

Another thing I'm a little worried about is my new hair cut. I should have known junk wasn't right when the "stylist" asked if my hair color was natural. She should have been able to tell. Well, I stresssssed the need for it to be pulled up in a pony tail I said I didn't mind putting it in a few pins but a pony tail was a must. Anyway, snip snip its up to my chin and you can not put it in a pony tail. A half and half works but I sweat like a beast especially on my neck and I already look rough after a run but now I'm worried I'm going to have a sweaty stringy fro too. I know, I know thats so vain but besides that i don't want to have sweaty hair sticking to my neck- yes that will drive me insane!

So over the next I think 18 hours I am going to be utterly excited but in the back of my mind I will be thinking of the little, trivial what ifs....